I've been forced to stop. Amidst orders coming in and the rounds of festive entertaining my body has decided that it's had enough for the year! My body decided to enter a feverish state during the early hours of Monday morning and decides it will re-enter such state each time I leave the house! Whhyyyy???? There's still too much to do! I haven't even had time to buy the kids their presents yet! Why now???
But I know why. I'd still be going if I didn't feel so unwell. By stopping, I actually have had the chance to reflect on what has been one hell (or heaven, depending on perspective) of a year.
As I stop, breathe and go inwards, I begin to wonder who is this woman, so different from the woman that sat here a year ago? How did she get through this year? Where will 2016 take her?
I am the woman who has survived a DV relationship. I am the woman who packed the job in because I couldnt work another day with a deceitful manager. I am the woman who has survived post-natal depression but knows that the depression is lingering in the distance waiting to rear its ugly head. I am the woman who suffered from anxiety. I am the single mum not knowing whether we are going to eat or heat. I am the single mum who is on the verge of homelessness. I am the single mum who is having to keep it real dealing with a teenager with depression.
I am brave. I am courageous. I am an ideas person. I am an intuitive. I am a Crystal Healer. I am a Chakra balancer. I am a lightworker. I am love. I am a leader. I am laughter. I am joy. I am freedom. I am fun. I am my sacred womb. I am explorative. I am erotic. I am over-the-top. I am excitable. I am trust. I am my self-belief. I am my truth. I am Mother. I am Woman. I am Goddess. I am Me.
My shadow and my light. All of what I AM is what enables me to be here today. My turmoil, my anguish, my hurts and traumas are also my gifts in which I am able to give guidance to others.
As we wrap up the final scenes of 2015 I'd like to thank you all for your support throughout this year. Over the next few weeks, if things/energy/people get a bit too much, breathe, retreat, and if you need to, reaffirm your boundaries to yourself and those around you.
2015 has been trying for many people but we have made it through, completed many changes, reclaimed our personal power and are ready to live our truth and create a magical 2016!
Sending you all so much love, happiness and healing light!
All my love and gratitude,